As each day goes by I think of all my memories that I have and I stop and strain to try and remember more. Why does my mind go blank when I try to conjure up more memories??? I know there are many even in just short 15 years. The love I have for you Timmy will never fade. I hope my memories never fade, I wish I could just see your face one more time, hear your voice, or your big belly laugh and that goofy grin you always had. Just to hug you and tell you that I love you and I always did and always will. I cry all the time and think did I tell you enough how much I love you, did I hug you enough. You always made me smile, you always made me laugh even when times were tough. You were such a great kid, you would have been such a great man. It is summer now and I remember going down the shore. How you loved the beach. I remember the last time we went and how you and Billy just kept catching those sand crabs and bringing them back up in a bucket. How you guys would ride the waves and stay in the water until your lips turned blue. We had so much fun down the shore. Even on the drive down and back even when you kept asking "are we there yet", "are we getting close". My heart is so broken without you. I love you forever and a day my sweet angel. "Good night baby cakes, don't stay up late, love ya."